I believe I can fly !

Sometimes we wait for something to happen .Something to turn our life up side down ,change us deepest inside our soul. Some look for that ,others just set and wait and I never knew what has to be done !.
Finding ideal world were all people love each other ,respect and be nice .It's a dream ! I guess but deep inside me I belief there might be out some where . There is what we wished for every night ,every thing we dreamt of ,where fairy tales come true .Should I search ?I don't know but am trying to have the best life I can .I do believe in fairytales stories even in they are stupid I do and I'll never be able to change!.
In Some moments I get so sad, angry feeling that every thing is unfair ,every thing going against me .I never knew wither it was just a feeling or something that's happening to me .Why am not able to cry ?.I figured out lately that I promised my self when I was kid not to cry ,to keep my head high so the uncontrolled tears drops wouldn't fall on my face! when ever I feel sad I wouldn't cry till I learnt not to by practice .That's what teachers says practice, but I never knew that it will be true.
Now I miss the old me ,that cries when she is sad ,laugh when happy and never be ashamed of a drop of tear that can take a tiny part of the sorrow from her heart .